This image represents the luminous allure of grace. For me grace is the ability to let darkness and light co-exist as illumination. Artistically speaking, it is the ability to wear the pain and shoulder that tension in a way that makes it visually compelling.
Pain has been chronic and constant these past few weeks. I have Fibromyalgia, Crohns disease and get frequent migraines. I believe much of this is tied to my PTSD.I have my okay days, my good days and the days i struggle. So i wanted this image to captivate at a glance but then, as you look closer, i wanted the pain in my eyes, the slight grimace of my face, to slowly come into focus, because for so many chronic pain sufferers we get used to hiding and masking our pain until it becomes invisible to others.
HOW THIS IMAGE WAS CREATED: If you look closely you can see the reflection of my dinky little camera/video on the tripod, reflecting in the background and a shadow of my hand on the left. The background was composed of easter grass, a shimmery silver-threaded scarf and glass stones. I was underneath a tinted glass coffee table. I used a digital camera with a remote-controlled shutter release.
About Me: I am a self-taught taught artist that discovered my passion of photography, back in 1995, while writing my first book, Haunting Hands. A book initially intended to be a collection of poems i had written about surviving a difficult childhood. I decided it would feel more personal if i created the cover for the book myself. Shortly thereafter, i purchased a camera and turned my living room into a makeshift studio. I did a series of self-portraits and then another and another. The process of creating and putting myself in front of the camera felt cathartic, liberating and healing. The photographic medium opened up a new world to me and ignited a kind of passion within that i didn’t even know i was capable of experiencing. My book transformed into a, survivor-orientated, photographic essay and that started me down the path to becoming a photographic artist.
ANSWER TO THE MOST FAQ EVER: Are your self-portraits, self-portraits? YES! I don't consider a self-portrait to be TRULY a self-portrait unless i take the picture of myself, by myself. It's not easy to chase oneself around with the camera, LOL. But that's what i do. I use a digital camera, utilizing the self-timer mode. Sometimes i get the shot i want on the first shot or first few frames and other times it takes me 100s of pictures to get the shot i want.
WHY do you create? . . . because imagery, poetry and words can offer us a feeling, an experience and the magical gift of transport. I want my imagery to give people a way to express themselves, to offer them a moment of magic and wonder, I want to ignite the imagination, emotions and give people a sense of connection. Learn more about my creative process via the Q & A page of my website: http://www.redbubble.com/people/jaedadewalt/journal/694520-q-and-a-with-jaeda.
BRIEF BIO: I have produced cover art for books, playbills, collective fine art books and have had my work exhibited in New York, including the Hofstra Museum. In 2009 i published, Shades of the Soul an artography book featuring my art and poetry. You can preview my book, here: http://www.blurb.com/bookstore/detail/625673