Description This is a personal image, representing my lack of a relationship with my mother.
MORE ABOUT THIS IMAGE: This image is rich with symbolism, layers of meaning emerging from the details. The woman in the center is my mother, she is trapped in time, frozen in her past. I could never touch my mother, nor reach her emotionally. She was a physically beautiful, classy and elegant woman. So i used a hybrid of model Clarissa, Adrianna and a mannequin; to give her that almost but not quite human aesthetic. My mother couldnt see me, she was blinded by her own issues, hence the blacked out sunglasses.
The women to the left and right of this image are me. If you look closely you will see i have broken, mechanical hands. This represents my inability to reach my mother and how that affected my ability to reach within myself and in turn, others. I often feel like an alien masquerading as a human in this earthly existence.
In this image i wanted to be covered in layers, upon layers of clothing with a costume type feel, because when i was around my mother i had to cover my emotions, hide my true self and adopt a persona.
About Me: I am a self-taught taught artist that discovered my passion of photography, back in 1995, while writing my first book, Haunting Hands. A book initially intended to be a collection of poems i had written about surviving a difficult childhood. I decided it would feel more personal if i created the cover for the book myself. Shortly thereafter, i purchased a camera and turned my living room into a makeshift studio. I did a series of self-portraits and then another and another. The process of creating and putting myself in front of the camera felt cathartic, liberating and healing. The photographic medium opened up a new world to me and ignited a kind of passion within that i didn’t even know i was capable of experiencing. My book transformed into a, survivor-orientated, photographic essay and that started me down the path to becoming a photographic artist.
ANSWER TO THE MOST FAQ EVER: Are your self-portraits, self-portraits? YES! I don't consider a self-portrait to be TRULY a self-portrait unless i take the picture of myself, by myself. It's not easy to chase oneself around with the camera, LOL. But that's what i do. I use a digital camera, utilizing the self-timer mode. Sometimes i get the shot i want on the first shot or first few frames and other times it takes me 100s of pictures to get the shot i want.
WHY do you create? . . . because imagery, poetry and words can offer us a feeling, an experience and the magical gift of transport. I want my imagery to give people a way to express themselves, to offer them a moment of magic and wonder, I want to ignite the imagination, emotions and give people a sense of connection. Learn more about my creative process via the Q & A page of my website: http://www.redbubble.com/people/jaedadewalt/journal/694520-q-and-a-with-jaeda.
BRIEF BIO: I have produced cover art for books, playbills, collective fine art books and have had my work exhibited in New York, including the Hofstra Museum. In 2009 i published, Shades of the Soul an artography book featuring my art and poetry. You can preview my book, here: http://www.blurb.com/bookstore/detail/625673